I will be facing about 100 people in the audience looking at every little thing i do. At 7:30 they will. I like acting. For a few minutes you get to be someone other then your freakish self. Someone out of a book or a playwright. Their lifes are more exciting, they have nothing to stress about because when the plays over they go back to being just a simple line in a book.

We are throwing a production of ‘charlie and the chocolate factory’. 6 months i have been rehersing. Now at the end of it im purely shitting my pants.

I play German Mrs Gloop. I was lucky i didnt have a bigger part and i get along with Rielda who is playing Augustus Gloop. Sounds simple learning lines but it is stressfull, and for me changing my accent was the hardest.

Wish me luck everyone on wordpress

As i stop typing for a minute to inhale my spliff i wonder why people smoke or do drugs? What good is it doing? It takes your mind off alot of things in life but it is only temperarily. Shouldnt we be thinking about life though? Making sure we are doing are best or is humanity just to lazy to try any more. Im a good example. Dont care about education – smokes underage – likes to drink, and have casual sex. But why do we do that? Or why do I? Is it human nature? Or the way we are supposed to live.

Morals run dry these days and i need my morals back.

I need good rules for me to live my life by. With out them. We are nothing.

I just broke up with my boyfriend.

No hard feelings – he still wants to be friends. I am no longer living a lie, a bitch nor am i stringing him along. Thats a good thing!

Im back on the market – young, free and single and ready to mingle again!

And damn it feels good. So i think the answer to this story is ladies you do not need a man to make you feel great about yourselfs.

But what is love? Is it a feeling, is it something that can get turned on and off?

I will tell you something about me – I live a lie.

My current relationship is with Ryan. He always says he loves me and i say it back. Now after 2 months of this im feeling resentfull. I nolonger want to be with him. Thats mean of me. People ask me if im single and i answer with a simple ‘yes’. So im also a bitch. Maybe im not as im too nice to just break up – or maybe im being horrible for stringing him along.

How come people strive to be in a relationship and when they are in one they want to be single again? Come’on people times have changed. Women now can do everything a man can – they now have power, sucess and freedom so do they need a man?

Or is Samantha off of sex and the city right? is it easier to be with a man who loves you more then you love them?

Im confused i need advice so if anyone online has advice please comment me.